Steps

Yay!

2012-01-09T07:35:00.001-06:00

Another three pounds gone -- that's 9 in 3 weeks and I'm going strong....

Back at the Y at Five this morning

2012-01-05T06:56:00.002-06:00

Managed 14 minutes on the treadmill, ten without pain. Today I even added intervals. If you haven't ever worked out with intervals, you should do some research on it. Apparently the way that they work means you burn 30% more calories and it your metabolism is affected for 12 hours after the workout. Not to mention the extra endorphins!

Intervals just means that you get your heart rate up to a high point and then let it go back again. The way I do it is every three minutes I spend one of those minutes going at a difficult pace and the other recovering. ideally it should be the other way around -- and I'll get to that, but for now I'm pleased I'm even able to get on the treadmill.

How's everyone else doing?

Small Slow Victories

2012-01-04T11:55:00.003-06:00

One of my big goals over the next few weeks is to get rid of my lower back pain. It comes and goes and is triggered by lack of exercise and weighing more. When I get to a certain weight it stops hurting. I'm not at that weight right now but I really want to get there before I fly to Seattle in 3 weeks. I'm about 12 pounds off, so I might not quite get there, but already I see improvements.

Because this was my specific goal, I decided to start tracking how long I could walk without pain. The first day back on the treadmill I walked for seven minutes and the whole entire 7 minutes were horribly painful. However, today I walked 13 minutes and eleven of those were pain free. This is only my 8th day back at the gym and I've only lost 5 pounds, but it is amazing how much progress I've made!

I'm excited -- and happy to see Brenda is joining me. Anyone else?

Back at it...

2012-01-02T09:38:00.002-06:00

Well, here we go again. Back in September I started feeling icky and stopped going to the Y altogether and of course, by mid October, I had gained all but four of the pounds back that I had lost in the first part of 2011. I was angry with myself and thus ate even more....

But the first week of November I took a plane trip and walking in the airports nearly killed me because of back pain. I didn't have another flight scheduled til the end of January, so I set a modest goal of losing 20 pounds by then. I went back to the YMCA once that next week and could barely walk back to the van after I was done. The next day it was discovered that I was in "A-fib" and even though the doctor told me that I could exercise, it made me nervous.

I tried to cut out some bad eating habits, and by last MOnday had lost two. This past week I was back at the YMCA taking very small steps. I started at only 7 minutes on the treadmill and increased a minute a day. This week I'm trying to increase my speed a bit. I lost three more pounds!

I know how to lose weight. I've done it before. There are no miracles. My Lap Band Surgery was so easy to cheat it didn't help. The bottom line is that I have to eat less, eat the right things, and exercise. it pretty much sucks that that is the only way to lose weight for me... but it is.

So, here we go again. Anybody want to join me?

Day Two of Good Workouts

2011-03-08T07:17:00.002-06:00

Twenty two minutes on the treadmill this morning with six intervals, getting up to 4 mph and my heart rate up to 150. Then 34 minutes on the cross trainer with a couple of intervals there too. I'm feeling quite good.

Came home and made myself a high-protein, low carb breakfast and I'm feeling quite good about that! Today I head in to the lap band specialist -- he added some to my band about six weeks ago and now we're going to see how much I've lost and if I need an adjustment. According to my records I have lost 8 pounds, but who knows what that scale will say!

One day at a time is all that I can do!

Feeling Good

2011-03-07T06:47:00.002-06:00

Went to the Y again today and have hit the 30 pounds lost since I started my most recent decent. I had a great workout -- 47 minutes, with 20 of them on the treadmill at 2.5 mph for with 5 intervals -- 3.0, 3.2, 3.4, 3.6, and 3.8. The rest I did on the cross trainer, managing three intervals there....

Three years ago I had my best weight loss run ever, loosing about 43 pounds from March to October. If I could replicate that I'd be thrilled so I'm going to look back and see what I did back then....

So if you've been following this silly journey, maybe, just MAYBE, this one will be THE one....

Last week...

2011-01-10T06:42:00.001-06:00

Well, last week I met both of my goals. I exercised 229 minutes (the goal was 200) and I also had no pop with sugar in it. This week I am going to have my lap band filled (tomorrow, hopefully) and begin to follow that diet. Anybody else have some health goals they are working on?

Back to Posting Here

2011-01-03T06:46:00.002-06:00

THIS is the year that I'm going to break the 2008 record low in my weight, so I better document it.

I started going back to the Y in June and have been fairly consistent. Since then I have lost 28 pounds and am planning on losing the rest this year. I'm going to have my lap band filled soon and hopefully that will assist me in this journey to get to a healthy weight for me.

Went this morning and my goal is 200 minutes a week -- 5 x at 40 minutes each. So one day is down, four to go this week.

Who else plans for weight loss in 2011? Want to report your progress somewhere? How about here?

I am going to start the one habit per week thing that helped so much in 2008. This week I am replacing all pop with water (again.... I know, I know, I'm cyclical and keep coming back to the same stuff).

What about you? What are you going to change this week?

Progress

2010-08-30T08:13:00.002-05:00

I haven't been posting here much because I hate to get all excited and then get unexcited and look like an inconsistent moron. But today the news is so good that I have to post it. This last week I tried really hard to lose weight and I did! Seven pounds! So I'm back on a roll -- motivated as ever.

My OCD self has me creating and maintaining this chart. This really helps me to see my progress, even if it is pathetic.

The Longest Workout ever that almost wasn't one at all...

2010-07-30T10:14:00.003-05:00

Last night was a bad one, as indicated in the other blog. Kari had indicated she wasn't going to come to the Y with me and I decided I just didn't have what it took to go alone. I went back to bed an finally decided that going to the Y couldn't possibly make me feel any worse than I already did. So I went.

Once I got on the bike, I couldn't make myself go to the treadmill so I stayed there an extra ten minutes. And then I told myself when I got on the treadmill that I could stop whenever I wanted to, but I set it for the normal 20 minutes and I went ahead and finished it. And I felt much better. My head seemed to clear a little bit.

So I'm glad I went. I am still exhausetd, but at least I"m not feeling completely hopeless.

Beginning Week Four with Five Intervals

2010-07-19T08:34:00.002-05:00

Do you know that interval workouts are the best at burning calories? Basically the principle is that you go real hard for a short time, and then let your heart rate get lower, and then push it back up again. A couple years ago when I was doing so well with weight loss I was doing intervals and they really do work. Plus it gives me something to do as I increase and decrease speed manually at various minute markers.

Today I did a 20 minute interval workout, with 5 separate intervals, the highest being at 3.5 This was the best workout so far this round of weight loss, which I really am determined be my last. I don't plan on seeing the number I saw on the scale today again.

And I'm down 3 more pounds this week, for a total of 15 in 3 weeks, which pleases me. I know I'm going to have to work harder this week if I want to see the loss continue as I didn't try that hard this week with food choices, etc.

BUt this is the kind of progress to make. Slow, steady, increasing endurance and exercise daily, slowly working on food intake, drinking lots of water.... one step at a time.

At the end of the 3rd week back at it.

2010-07-16T08:40:00.001-05:00

I managed to do intervals for 20 minutes with the peak interval at 3.5, which shocks me since 1.7 was a struggle three weeks ago. I finish the time on the bike.

My eating the last few days has been horrible though.... I am getting plenty of water, but have slipped back to diet pop and an ocassional bad fast food meal. Need to get back into not doing that if I'm going to reach that goal of losing 30 by Labor Day.

I'm nervous about weighing on on Monday. Maybe if I'm really careful all weekend....

Best Workout so Far (well, for this round anyway)

2010-07-14T08:25:00.004-05:00

20 minutes, some of them at 2.7. Going to start intervals tomorrow. This is the 12th workout in 2.5 weeks. I am feeling so much better already that I can't believe the difference. Just can't lose the momentum.

Another boring update

2010-07-13T07:44:00.003-05:00

Yes, I went to the Y. Yes I had a good workout. 19 minutes at 2.6. Each day a little better.

Bart made my favorite meal last night though -- Hay and Straw -- but I didn't have dessert and only had one piece of bread. (OK, OK, so I had quite a bit of pasta). I'm having water to drink nearly all the time and liking it.

Trying to pace myself and not get too angry when I mess up.

Slow lifestyle changes have to continue to happen.

Sweating

2010-07-12T08:17:00.003-05:00

More sweat today. Managed to go 18 minutes at 2.5.... so in 2 weeks I've gone from 10 minutes at 1.7 to 18 minutes at 2.5. Progress for sure.

And I lost 4 more pounds, making that 12 in 2 weeks. Not complaining about that in any way. I realize it won't stay up there like that for long, but it's fun while it lasts and very motivating. I think I'm going to try to make it my goal to lose 30 in all by Labor Day. That's doable... just 18 more pounds in 8 weeks. Definitely doable.

I am feeling a bit better each day, but it is such a long haul!

More Baby Steps

2010-07-09T07:58:00.001-05:00

18 minutes on teh treadmill at 2.4. Once I hit twenty I will start doing intervals again. Remainder of the time on the bike. Enjoying sweating again even though my lung capacity is still low. I know if I keep it up some day I"ll be back to where I was two years ago. Just going to take a long time to get there.

A Bit More Every Day

2010-07-08T08:03:00.002-05:00

My strategy is to increase speed and add a minute of walking each day. So far I've done it for almost 2 weeks. The workouts are getting better. I am still having trouble catching my breath sometimes, and I have back pain towards the end of the walk, but I'm determined to build back my strength.

And I have been drinking a lot of water, which is very good for me when I diet. IT's part of the formula. And I've been watching what I eat more than I have in months.

Baby Steps.

Hate them.

Another Day of Sweat

2010-07-07T07:55:00.002-05:00

Went 16 minutes on the treadmill this morning at a higher speed. I have to keep working at this gradually, but I did sweat some more this morning. I also had some back pain that will have to be managed.

But regardless of the workout, I always feel better having gone.

Beginning Week Two with Sweat

2010-07-06T08:24:00.002-05:00

We weren't sure the Y would be open yesterday, and after all it WAS a holiday, so we skipped. But this morning either it was a LOT hotter in there than usual, or I worked a lot harder! I sweat like crazy.

And, I lost 8 pounds!

Want to know the secret? Retain water for lets say -- about 4 months -- and then take water pills. It works wonders. But hey, i'll take it. And I'm sure that eating right, for the most part, and exercising 5 days last week didn't hurt.

I have some new goals and a bit of renewed vision. Look out, world... I'm getting another water pill prescription filled ;-)

Day Five

2010-07-02T07:41:00.001-05:00

Felt even better today, even though it is slow going. I"m hoping by the end of the summer I won't have to stop and catch my breath at the counter (and flirt with the 20 something desk clerk) on my way out. He says it's a reachable goal. I told him flirting with him was such a huge burden. Kari just stands back and pretends she doesn't know me, but still laughs.

SO, 5 days in a row. ONe week done. Next week we gotta do five more in a row. One day at a time.

Day Four in a Row

2010-07-01T07:48:00.001-05:00

Went again this morning, same time, same routine, increasing one minute a day on the treadmill, and upping the speed a little bit. Embarrased to only be going 13 minutes at 2 mph when 2 years ago I was going 38 minutes with intervals at twice that speed. But I have to take things one day at a time. The rest of the 40 minutes I spend on the bike and it seems to work for me. I do have some back time and some breathing issues, but I know if I push myself too hard I will most likely quit.

So, day four is done. One more and I'll be done for the week. And my food intake has been pretty good, have had lots of water, and only one pop this week. BIG change from the last couple weeks. I haven't had any caffeine either, another big change. So, I"m making progress, one day at a time.

Feeling Just a Tiny Bit Better

2010-06-30T07:39:00.002-05:00

This morning's workout was better than yesterdays by a little bit. I didn't feel quite as drained. however, I think people must wonder how in the world I could work out when I can't even drag my butt up the stairs without breathing heavily when I'm done. I keep telling myself to take it slow, one day at a time, and if today is a bit better than yesterday so be it.

My eating is back under control and I'm not having pop (or soda, for those of you who don't know what pop is). I've had water now... one vitamin water treat yesterday -- and one caffeine free iced tea. Otherwise I"m just trying to get down 64 oz of water a day. I don't mind water. According to Dominyk, it tastes horrible, but I actually think water tastes fine. ;-)

Each day I am adding one minute on the treadmill and increasing my speed by .1 mph. I know that sounds nuts, but since my surgery many things about my body just aren't the way they need to be. So I'm doing it... one step at a time, one day at a time.

My blood sugar numbers are higher than they should be, but I'm hoping that once I get into a routine of eating write they, too, will gradually get lower.

I JUST HATE THE WORD GRADUALLY!

Such a Long Road Ahead

2010-06-29T08:49:00.000-05:00

I was at the Y again this morning at 6, but the road ahead is so steep. I am so out of shape. I have until the end of August to get my blood sugars down, and i wanted to see PROGRESS in one day. However, I did not even though I ate only what I should have yesterday and exercised and everything. I realize it's going to take time, but wow, the time it is going to take is going to drive me crazy.

Oh well, I'm doing it. Even without seeing results after one day. Ridiculous. :->

Unfortunate News

2010-06-28T07:39:00.002-05:00

I have now broken a record. I weigh more than I ever have in my whole life by 2 pounds. I know a lot of it is water weight, but I am going to have to be very diligent now in getting this weight off. I don't feel good when I weigh this much and it's just ridiculous.

If you've followed this blog for very long, you know that 2 years ago i had a major episode of good health that lasted from March to October. During that time I lost 47 pounds and felt great. Now here I am at my heaviest. The amount of self-loathing I have about this particular issue is off the charts.

However, every day is a new day, and so far this day has started well. I got in the 40 minutes of exercise and am half way through my water bottle. I have a bit more energy and I am ready to begin the climb again to get back to the person I was. Sigh.

Back in the Saddle and OH I'm sore

2010-05-24T06:35:00.002-05:00

Went back to the Y with Kari this morning at 5. Weight is up, endurance and strength is way down. Wow, I was tired. I even asked Justin, the college boy at the desk, if he could carry me to the car. My legs really hurt. So does my back.

I know, I know. Whine whine whine.

Day 5 in a Row

2010-04-23T06:42:00.001-05:00

Made it the fifth day in a row. 17 minutes on the treadmill with signifiant pain during hte last five minutes. Remaining 23 minutes on the bike. Still plugging away.....

and again today....

2010-04-22T06:58:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I did a better job of eating than I have been. And this morning I went to the Y -- 16 minutes on the treadmill, 29 on the bike. Only got to 2.7 mph though. Slow but steady.

I Went to The YMCA

2010-04-21T06:36:00.000-05:00

and I made it 15 minutes on the treadmill and was still breathing at the end. 25 on the bike. Sweat. Nothing funny or eventful happened.

A Comedy of Errors

2010-04-20T06:41:00.003-05:00

I got up, picked up Kari, and then it all began. We got to the Y and I dropped my keys but didn't know it. I then went to the bathroom and had a very large ... what word should I use here .... turd? piece of crap? portion of a bowel movement? stuck half way in and half way out. Now I don't usually talk about poop, even though many famous bloggers spend hours of time talking about it, but this was an unusual situation. What to do what to do? Fifteen minutes later I had not made any progress and Kari was thinking about coming back in to check on me. Not being able to lodge it, I finally decided to go about my routine and did so, with surprisingly minimal discomfort.

In the shower I dropped my soap, my pants fell into the water, and afterwards we discovered I had no keys. Since we have only one key to the van and Bart is out of town, thus leaving my office locked, it wasn't looking to be a good day. Kari OFFERED to go in and try to find them, and finally checked at the desk where they were, but I'm sure the guy back there was thinking (as Kari tried to determine if they were my keys or not) "why doesn't she get her fat butt in here and look for her own keys."

While I doing an inappropriate post anyway, you'd be pleased to know that Dominyk was obsessing about his "ball sack" last night and would not stop talking about all the aspects of it. In addition, he wanted to sleep with his new toy gun. Since I was letting him sleep with me, you can imagine how our our pillow talk went. "Mom, my ball sack itches, and it's hanging weird. It really itches. Like a lot. Ooooh mom, it itches, my ball sack really itches." "Dominyk, go put the gun in your room. I am NOT sleeping with a gun."

Sigh.

Biggest Loser Numbers

2010-04-19T06:33:00.002-05:00

10.5 pounds off since Wednesday. I'm not sure why, but I'll take it. It could be water weight, or medication, or a messed up scale but all I know is that last WEdnesday the scale was 10.5 pounds higher than it was last week. So I'm taking it as a victory and feeling like one of those 500 pound men on the biggest loser.

Except for the part where I'm not a man and I don't weigh quite 500 pounds, though a recent picture of me that I saw on Leon's girlfriend's Facebook would lead you to believe that I do.

Went back to the Y this morning by 5 (though we refuse to go stand in line at the door with the others) and managed to spend 13 minutes on the treadmill, though my speed is low. Just adding one minute per day seems really gradual, but it works.

This weeks fitness challenge is to drink at least 32 ounces of water a day. This is half of what we are supposed to drink, but I thought we'd start it off slow.

Everything we read tells us to drink more water and it works. Plain and simple.

Who is in?

Day Three

2010-04-16T06:25:00.002-05:00

Up to 12 minutes on the treadmill and 28 on the bike... not able to get as much air as I would like, so it's slow going, but I'm doing SOMETHING.

Waiting for a few of you to join me in committing to movement until Monday -- a little more each day. Interested?

It Works

2010-04-15T06:32:00.002-05:00

Yesterday was the best day emotionally that I have had in a while. As I mentioned yesterday the formula that works for me to keep sane is exercising, showering, and blogging before the kids get up. That means I have to be at the Y by around 5 a.m.

I did that yesterday and had more energy and was less tired all day than I've been in weeks. And the funny thing is, I barely had what you would call a workout. If you look back two years to July of 2008 this was the kind of workout I was having. Today I barely drug myself through 11 minutes on the treadmill at a HIGH of 2.5 mph, had back pain, couldn't breath well, etc. I finished the 40 minutes on the bike.

But it helps me to remember that after two months of going to the Y, I had only achieved being on the treadmill for 28 minutes and had not necessarily been going that fast.

If anyone would like to join me, this is your fitness challenge from now until Monday. Move today and then move tomorrow more than you did today. I am intending to add one minute to my treadmill time each day. It's not much, but that is what I"m going to do. If you are in REALLY bad shape, like I was a couple years ago, start by taking an extra trip up and down the stairs, or walking out to get the mail. Then add something each day until Monday.

THe key for me is setting a very small reachable goal and then attaining it. So choose something you can do and get 'er done. Don't start out TOO energetic to where you don't have time or energy to add to it, but do something today and then do a tiny bit more tomorrow.

Monday I"ll post a challenge for the next week. At least that's the plan, Stan. (Anyone out there named Stan?)

What a Month Can Do

2010-04-14T06:39:00.001-05:00

A month. One stupid little month of not paying attention, eating what I wanted, and nearly zero exercise and I have gained 16 pounds. I am completely out of shape, barely making 10 slow minutes on the treadmill this morning (having to finish the 45 minutes on the bike). My back hurts, I"m out of breath, and I'm incredibly angry with myself.

But this morning I did it. I was up at 4:40, and at the Y by 5:00 and now I"m home and showered. It's the best way ever to start my day and even though for a few days, maybe even a couple weeks, I'll feel tired, once I'm used to it and back in the zone it will help me immensely.

But grrrrrrr....................... am I mad at me.

Adding the Treadmill

2010-03-17T06:34:00.002-05:00

Today at the Y I added the treadmill. I'm trying to go slow as my lung capacity is still a bit compromised. So just 8 minutes today, with the plan to add 2 minutes a day until I reach about 30-35 and then I'll warm up and cool down on the bike.

It's not much of a workout when I'm taking it easy, but it does feel good to be up and going early and back on track...

Day Two of This Segment

2010-03-16T06:40:00.002-05:00

I tend to do weight loss in segments. It would be really nice if between segments I didn't gain back everything, but thinking about that is just going to make me crabby.

Overslept this morning but was proud of myself -- made it from being dead asleep to being outside Kari's front door in 8 minutes. Spent the 40 minutes on the bike as no treadmills were available (though when I do get back on the treadmill I'm going to have to start real slow -- my lungs still aren't completely recovered from the pneumonia).

But I was pleased to make it there and back since a couple weeks ago I couldn't have even made it from the van into the YMCA. SLow but steady progress is what I'm hoping for.

This week I'm beginning to change my eating habits. This week I will transition my breakfast into what works for me. One Special K bar (90 calories) and two cheese sticks and water or ice tea. Next week I'll work on having what I should for lunch...... historically if I eat the same thing for breakfast and lunch and have one serving of whatever is for supper I can lose weight.

It's not that I don't KNOW what to do... it's doing it.

Back to the Y at 5:10

2010-03-15T06:34:00.002-05:00

I love going to the Y at five. Well, actually, let me rephrase that. I love being back home and showered having my exercise out of the way by 6:30. It feels so good to know that I've got my 40 minutes in already. I usually have a lot of energy and am ready to face my day.

This morning I weighed in and surprisingly only gained 11 pounds in the past several months. When I was in the hospital it appeared that I had gained 29, but the difference in scales and my water retention must have made the numbers that high. I'm actually only up 11 and that is much more encouraging.

I'm ready to start the downward trek again, incredibly angry at myself for losing the momentum 18 months ago. Two years ago last week I started my own fitness plan that helped me lose 43 pounds in about 4 months. It involved nothing new or unique -- just diet and exercise. It's time to do it again. But this time I need to keep going.

I was so empowered back then and I need to get my mojo back.........

I'm Totally Blaming this Whole Experience on Kari

2009-12-08T11:41:00.002-06:00

Yes, I went to the Y. I got in my 40 minutes. But afterwards the family/special needs locker room where she and I shower was full of preschoolers single Twinkle Twinkle Little Star (I kid you not) as their program people showered them one by one. Now had Kari been with me like she was supposed to be, I would definitely have not done this. She is never going to see me naked. I would have packed up and come home to shower. But somehow I convinced myself that i could hastily shower in the regular locker room without anyone seeing me.

I quickly stripped in a quiet corner, put a towel in front of me (no, it won't go around me thank you very much) and headed to the gang shower, which was empty. I found a place for my towel, and turned the water on and there I was, BUCK naked, when lap swimming ended and in came the group. They have to walk through the gang shower to get into the locker room so every single one of them was privy to my very large, very naked body.

I had the fastest shower known to mankind. Seriously. I could give you much more detail about this, but really, I think it would embarrass even me. And then I rushed back to my little corner where, low and behold, I realized that in my haste I had simply dropped my clothes into a pile and a very fit, very young, very not fat, fully clothed girl was standing at her locker which was next to my dirty underwear on the floor which, of course, according to Murphy's law, was crotch up. I hurriedly dressed and packed my bag in embarrassment, only to discover that I had put my glasses in the bag first, so I had to dig everything out to find them. When I finally had them out, I left, in shame, confused and frustrated.

And did I go to Burger king? DUH!

It's a Good thing...

2009-12-08T09:25:00.002-06:00

I'm going to go to the Y this morning even though Kari won't go with me.

It's a good thing that I am only adding one new habit a week. I'm going to finish my workout about lunch time and there is a Burger King right across the street from the Y.

Smile.

The Habit Challenge: Week One

2009-12-07T13:09:00.002-06:00

This week I'm going to exercise 40 minutes a day at least 5 times. I know this is a lot for a first step, but for me it isn't. I have done this before, I can do it again.

The idea of the habit challenge is that we have one habit to conquer each week. The weeks go from Monday to Sunday. If I accomplish the habit this week, I add a new one next week. If I don't, I try again next week. Small steps.

So what will your new habit be this week?

Starting Again.... But Slowly

2009-12-01T10:10:00.002-06:00

I have concluded that the reason that my journey to health went so well last time around is that it was gradual. Even though I know where I want to be, I know that if I don't get there slowly it isn't going to happen. If I deprive myself of everything immediately I won't stick to it.

So I have decided that every week I am going to add something to my routine (or take something away) that results in better health. I think this will be more helpful than the way I have been doing things lately, which is planning for a huge health makeover to take place... starting Monday (so I better eat all I can now).

The first step is going back to the YMCA which I did this morning. Then I will add something next week, and each of the following weeks until I can get to the place I know I need to be.

It feels good to be doing something at least.

If You Could Bottle The Feeling

2009-09-08T06:27:00.002-05:00

of walking into your house at 6:15 a.m., showered, ready for the day, energized, having had 32 ounces of water and 40 minutes of exercise... you could sell it.

PLUS

the feeling of winning round 2 of the biggest loser competition with Kari.

All I have to say to that is NEENER NEENER.

But really, we both one -- she lost a pound, i lost two.

I'm just won more.

Do you think it would be helpful to her if I gloat?

Mommy, Do You Like Getting Up and Going to the Y?

2009-09-03T07:28:00.003-05:00

Sadie is so cute. She's 14 and she still calls me mommy sometimes. Nobody else has done that in years, but it's sweet. So while we were heading to the Y this morning (without Kari I must add) she asks me, "Do you like getting up and going to the Y?"

I responded with a "No, not really. But I like not going less."

Confusing her I had to explain. I don't like exercise. Period. And I don't like getting up at the crack of dawn. But I do like how I feel after I go. I explained to her about endorphins, and how important it was for me to get some time to gather my thoughts before I had to deal with the onslaught of teenage hormones, especially during the school year. I told her that I had tons of energy until mid-afternoon if I got up and got moving early in the morning.

I also explained that sometimes I give myself a really hard challenge at the Y -- like going at 4 mph for a solid three minutes and pushing my heart rate up over 160. That way if I can make myself do it, I figure I have conquered one hard thing in the morning and I can conquer anything else that day.

So no, I don't like to get up and go to the Y. But I like what it does for me and how I feel afterwards. And I've gotten to the point now that the days I don't go are sluggish and icky -- thus, I like not going less than I like going.

And, to top it all off, when Kari does go with me we have a great time. We cut up and laugh and talk about serious stuff and do all kinds of interactive things. My friend Jill, who does not blog, mentioned that I am too serious lately in my writing, but it's because I'm overwhelmed, not because I'm not still flippin HILARIOUS. ;-)

Just ask Justin. He's the 20 something kid that works the early shift at the Y three days a week. My kids think I"m joking when I say he thinks I'm hot, but....

I'm BAAAACK!

2009-08-31T09:13:00.003-05:00

Well, having exercised minimally this summer and gaining back most of what I lost. But now Kari and I are doing our own personal biggest loser contest, and I intend to win. Except that now she is ahead. And she blogged about it.

And you know what she asked me this morning?

After a few choice words of pride, rubbing it in my face, she's all done gloating. And I'm thinking, good grief, when I am ahead I am so going to do a better job of bragging about it.

And so I said, "Is that it? Is that all the gloating you're going to do?"

And Little Miss People Pleaser says, "Would it be helpful to you if I would gloat?"

who says crap like that?

Momentum

2009-07-06T07:38:00.003-05:00

Well, momentum is working in the other direction now and I'm angry at myself. My weight went steadily down as I gained momentum and now that I am starting to gain it's going the other way. I am so frustrated with myself for allowing this to happen. I was on such a roll last summer and I lost my motivation and my momentum.

I have to get back on the wagon. like NOW.

I think the reason I am more frustrated with myself this time around is that i have never done better at weight loss and STILL i'm gaining it back.

GRRRRRRRR....

Back at it this morning

2009-06-24T07:04:00.003-05:00

At the Y by 5:15, did my workout, came home and had a couple cheesesticks, and now I'm at the computer.

40 minutes -- 25 on the treadmill, 15 on the bike. I think it was hotter in there today because I didn't work any harder but I sure sweat more.

And you wanted to know that...

Regret it every time

2009-06-23T08:34:00.002-05:00

Unless it is the end of a hard day and I am very tired, I never regret my decision to get up early and work out. When I do I have a lot of energy for hours afterwards, I feel great, and I'm empowered to do more. I have a sense of pride and accomplishment.

But I always regret it when I choose not to do it. Last night Kari wasn't feeling well and I should have gone to the Y without her this morning, because after all, I went for months without her last year, but I used that as an excuse. And last night, when she had her husband call me to say she couldn't come, I just want it to be known that I referred to her as a spineless wimp not because she was sick and possibly puking, but because she had Mike call to let me know.

Anyway, I digress. So the bottom line is, I don't know why I ever let myself skip a day. I always regret it when I do and then I'm crabby and unmotivated when I sleep in. Not learning from my mistakes. Good grief. You'd think I was one of my kids.

Wow... I didn't realize

2009-06-22T08:13:00.002-05:00

That it had been since April since I had posted. That's scary. Unfortunately, I gained 10 pounds during that time as well, but this last week lost 2. So I'm eight more than I was a couple months ago and not happy at all.

I'm determined to get back on things. When I left for NYC a year ago I was at an all time low of my life and now I am 23 pounds heavier than that. I'm going to see the same friend I saw last year who was a big part of motivating me on this journey, and I'm determined to not be heavier at least. I'd love to be just a few pounds lighter, but am realizing that probably isn't going to happen. I'm annoyed with myself for gaining some of it back. The nice thing is that I did not get to the point where I was having back pain again. I didn't gain it all back. And I'm still only 8 pounds away from the lightest I had been in about 15 years.

So here we go again. Went to the Y at 5 with Kari and Sadie and her friend joined us. Not a great workout, but better than nothing. And so far I've eaten fairly responsibly this morning.

Hopefully I'm back on the saddle...

Kari's Trainer

2009-04-16T06:50:00.004-05:00

So this morning at the Y I am totally being Jillian, looking off to the camera and commenting on Kari's progress, just like on the Biggest Loser show. And I was hilarious.

But not as hilarious as this. Can you imagine the horror of a trainer with this body and Jillian's face and personality? I decided not to spend too much time making it look realistic, cuz it just ain't gonna look realistic... trust me. But it was a lot easier making her face fit on my body than the other way around. (and yes, of course I had to use the picture of me at my heaviest. Why wouldn't i? After all, nobody can see my face...

Should it Alarm Me?

2009-04-13T06:37:00.002-05:00

While on the treadmill at 5:30 this morning I was listening to a podcast about fitness that has people who call in and ask questions. Do you think it should alarm me that the caller was sobbing, literally sobbing, because she ways nine pounds LESS than I do?

I did lose a pound or two (can't remember what I weighed last time it's been so long) and I was really excited because if figured I had gained at least five. I did NOT want to get up this morning, but when i was done I was really glad I had. It was a good workout and now i"m more ready for my day.

I'm even motivated to get back on track now. I think I'm going to look at a year ago on this blog and copy what I was doing then. It sure seemed to work last Spring...

You Really Just Wanna Smack Em

2009-03-25T06:48:00.003-05:00

Today there was a woman on "my" treadmill. Actually, it isn't mine completely, but it is the one I signed up for. ANd you'd think that me, Ms. Assertive, would easily be able to walk up to her and say, "hey, I signed up for this one" but instead I just sat on the bike and glared at her very very very skinny butt.

And I thought, Hey, I need that WAY more than you, can't you TELL? I swear she weighed maybe 120 soaking wet, pregnant, and after a huge salty meal where she was retaining water. And I was all, "what in the WORLD is she thinking taking my treadmill?"

But I just sat on the bike until another treadmill was free.

Brave me.

Brave, fat me can't confront skinny fit girl who stole my treadmill.

What is the world coming to?

Back by 6:15

2009-03-24T06:33:00.000-05:00

Kari and I were back by 6:15 this morning. I neglected to blog on Friday or yesterday, but we were there both days doing good cardio workouts. I lost a pound after not having lost anything for a while, so that's good.

This morning, though, we did weights and I am tired and sore... and the day is just beginning.

I need a nap.

Weight Training

2009-03-19T06:52:00.002-05:00

Did it again. 8 different weight machines, 3 sets of 15 reps, all before 6 a.m.

Feeling a bit tired and sore, but glad to have accomplished that. Days when I do cardio I feel a bit more motivated afterwards than on days when I do weights, but it does feel good to know I did something this morning.

Even if I already want a nap and it's only 7 a.m.

Intervals

2009-03-18T06:51:00.001-05:00

Another interval workout this morning, even with a headache. Felt good to have it done. Now I just need to get rid of the headache. I'm not losing weight yet, but hoping that getting back on track will make me feel better anyway. Today is the third day in a row that Kari and I were at the Y by 5:15 a.m. I always feel so much better when I start my days this way.

Except for the headache. I know, I'm just a whiner.

Note to Self

2009-03-17T06:30:00.002-05:00

I need to remember that if I get sick, and don't lift weights for two weeks, that going back to the same amount of weight that I had previously done right before skipping out is not a good plan. My arms are killing me.

But I did it. 7 machines and 3 sets of 15 reps for each machine. I'm not feling up to par, but I'm gld i I did it.

now I eel like I need a nap.

Back at It

2009-03-16T06:37:00.002-05:00

After a few weeks of being ill with various calamities, i was back at the Y at 5 this morning for a great 40 minute interval workout with my friend Kari.. Even though my stomach is still quite queasy, it is a great feeling to have exercise done by 6:30 a.m....

Here are my goals for this week:

40 minutes of interval cardio 3 x week
40 minutes of weight lifting 3 x a week
3 extra walks of at least 20 minutes during the week
No Pop
64 oz of water a day
"the sandwich" for lunch at least 3 days this week
Only one dessert this week
No Fast Food

Achievable for sure.... but difficult, oh yeah.

All Done

2009-02-23T07:23:00.002-06:00

I finished my workout and shower and was home by 6:30. I love that feelign. I gained 2 pounds this week, but I am just telling myself it's muscle. I'm trying to focus on the positives and not the negatives. If I feel better then I should be grateful, regardless of weight loss.

This week i'm adding a few more things to my routine -- no fast food, eating something small before I work out, and no drinks besides water, decaf tea and milk. that's on top of all the other stuff we did last week and the week before.

Last week I made it to the Y six straight days, five of them at five.

Can't beat that....

Still Hanging in there

2009-02-20T06:38:00.004-06:00

For the fifth day in a row I was a the YMCA at 5 a.m. now that is cranking. I love the feeling I get when I am done.

Today was kind of an off day -- Kari went with me and she gets me all hyper and I forget stuff. Like today I forgot my water bottle and left it in the van, had no Y card, didn't bring a comb -- and then my favorite treadmill was busy for a while (as were most of them) so I only had 20 minutes there and 20 on the bike.

Plus, I had to stand next to a skinny person who was running and those really skinny people, you know the ones I'm talking about, the ones in perfect shape, they just grate on my nerves sometimes. Today I looked over at her cool down speed and it was higher than my maximum speed. And then she did this little thing where she rode the treadmill to the end and hopped off. Here I hold on for dear life as I move my feet off the thing worried I'll fall off. Sigh.

But I got in the workout and showered and feel great. And I did drink about 20 oz of water on my way home. So the day is off to a great start.

I have been participating in a challenge with Cindy in Tx who is challenging me. My rules for the week have been, starting Monday, as follows:

40 minutes of Cardio MWF
40 minutes of strength training (weight machines) TThS
Check blood sugar daily
64 oz of water a day
no pop of any kind
no fries or fry substitutes
10 squats per day
only one dessert per week

So far this week I've made it each day. Next week I get to choose the rules. Any suggestions of what to add?

Showing Off and I'm Sore

2009-02-17T06:52:00.003-06:00

Kari came with me to the Y this morning and I think I was showing off a little bit -- going a little faster than normal with the weights -- and I'm feeling it... in the arms especially. But it is awesome to come home by 6:30 a.m. having worked out and showered. I love it!

It Paid Off

2009-02-16T08:52:00.001-06:00

Well, I lost three pounds. Saturday I did weight lifting at the Y, adding five pounds to each weight machine, and today I was back there doing cardio -- interval workout -- and taking my shower. I love taking my shower there. It's such a nice, clean controlled environment. I can even use nice shampoo that nobody has messed with. Even after our shower is fixed in the basement I may continue the habit especially since I discovered that the family locker room, never used at that hour, has private showers.

So I'm starting the week off feeling great!

Yesterday and Today

2009-02-13T06:49:00.001-06:00

Yesterday I did 40 minutes of Weight machines starting at 5:20 a.m. This morning my cardio/interval workout started at 5:30 and even stayed to shower at the Y. I haven't had a pop all week and have had at least 30 ounces of water every day. I'm getting my groove back....

It's About How You Feel

2009-02-11T09:58:00.002-06:00

Yesterday I used the weight machines and today I did a 25 minute interval workout and 15 minutes of cardio on the bike. While I was doing that I listened to a fitness podcast and my online personal trainer Jonathan Roche was talking about how you feel is what makes people determine how fat you are. Now, mind you, I am not going to ever suggest that people are going to look at me and say, "OOOOH, she is SOOOOO skinny." That would be, well, stupid.

However, I noticed something. Back in July I hit a plateau for about two months. But I was still working out and eating right anyway. During those whole two months people were saying "Wow, you look so good! You've lost some more haven't you." And I had to admit that I was not.

About the time that I stopped working out, people stopped commenting. And nobody has said anything for a while. Last week I started going back to the gym and for the first time in about 3 months people at church said something on Sunday. So I think there may be something to what Jonathan is saying. If I feel like a fat, sedentary, lazy, unmotivated slob I may just look like one. If I feel like a motivated, in control of my life, energetic queen of fitness, I probably look like one.

This morning when I was on the treadmill I began to get that feeling I remember so well. That feeling that nothing is impossible, that I can do anything if I try. And I'm ready to get back on the wagon full force and make things happen again.

It's been a long several months, but I'm BAAAAACK!

Back at It at 5:20

2009-02-09T07:03:00.003-06:00

This morning I actually made it to the Y by 5:20. Got my cardio done today -- 40 minutes of it, and I've had 30 oz of water already this morning. I did gain two pounds this week but I'm sure it was muscle since I lifted weights 3 times last week ;-)

I'm hoping this is the beginning of getting back on track!

Doing Better Today

2009-02-05T10:44:00.003-06:00

Did 20 minutes of cardio this morning and then learned how to use the weights. TOmorrow I will start with 3 sets of each of 6 weights, with 15 reps for each. Plus do some cardio.

ANd I've already had 30 oz of water this morning and I"m giving up pop again.

Hopefully i'm going to get back on track...

Not Happy with Myself

2009-02-04T10:06:00.002-06:00

So, i've gained back 15 of the pounds I lost and that just isn't making me happy. Six of them in the last three or four weeks. It's just not OK.

But, I'm going to try and get back on track. I went to the Y this morning and then worked out on the Wii fit. And now I"m going to attempt to eat fairly healthy today, though there is this bag of chocolates that I have in my desk that ... well... I couldn't just throw away or feed to unappreciative children....

New Trick

2009-01-06T06:38:00.003-06:00

For Christmas i had asked for an ITunes gift card because I have not taken time to watch the only TV show I follow any more (Grey's Anatomy -- I know, I know). I wanted to download the shows and watch them on my computer, but I haven't even had time to do that. So yesterday I put them on my Iphone and watched an episode from the treadmill on my Iphone. Wow, was that ever a good idea. In fact, I was so into the show that I walked an extra 18 minutes -- I exercised for 58 minutes!

I'm doing it again today. My new routine is to get up about 5:30, work for 90 minutes, wake up the kids, and then go to the Y after I take them to school. it seemed to work quite well yesterday, though it does bother me that I don't get really started working until ten....

SO hopefully I'm back at a routine that will work for me until it gets warmer and lighter out and I can make myself go at 5 again.

Empowerment

2009-01-02T07:03:00.004-06:00

I realized as I was walking on the treadmill on Tuesday that the whole exercise thing for me is really about empowerment. It's bout how I feel when I do accomplish a goal . . . about how my spirit feels when I conquer myself. I had gotten to the point by July where I was on top of the world and then it all just slipped...... fortunately it didn't slip completely far, as I only gained back 9 pounds...(on the 22nd I used a different scale, but this Monday I went to the Y). in the past it has been gaining back 20 or 30 or 40 or 60 or gaining back more than I had previously lost, so at least I can feel better about catching myself before it was too late.

Now that I'm moving back in that direction again I can already feel some of the emotional benefits. I had sunk into a very unproductive slothful existence just like I had been before I started to exercise. I am looking forward to having some of the energy back that comes from exercising, but most importantly, I am looking forward to feeling the empowerment that comes from taking on myself and winning.

Hey, me, you better watch out! I'm BAAAACKK!

And Almost A Full Month later

2008-12-22T08:25:00.002-06:00

Glad to have only gained back a couple pounds, I'm going to attempt to get going again. I am now 16 pounds heavier than I was when I got to my lowest. Pretty enfuriating.

But I'm back at it or trying to be.... and hoping that I can get a headstart before new year's day. Did a 30 minute workout this morning on the Wii Fit.....

And I"ll be back to charting my weight -- hoping to have it start going down again.

OK, Now I'm MAD

2008-11-24T06:44:00.001-06:00

last week I just checked out of this whole weight loss/fitness thing and I am so regretting it.

Is it really possible to gain 5.5 pounds in one week?

They are liars 'It took a long time to put on this weight, it will take a long time to take it off"

Apparently it doesn't take a long time at all to gain weight.

AAAAAAARGH.

But i did go to the Y at five this morning, so that's always a good start to my week.

Even if I did get on the scales.

Working My Way Out of a Bad Mood

2008-11-17T09:36:00.003-06:00

I did go to the Y on Friday last week, but did nothing all weekend long. This morning I was crabby as all get out by the time I got to the Y.
The day didn't start well. Salinda insisted we needed to go to the Y at 5 (when I was planning to go at 8:30) but then didn't get up, so I ended up going back to bed and not sleeping for 30 minutes before I got up to get work done. Let's just say that the morning routine was not smooth this morning and by the time they were all in school and I was heading to my workout, I was not in good shape.

Then when I got there, I found I had gained 3.5 pounds which made me even crabbier. The plan I'm working says I have to do 30 minuets on the treadmill, using intervals. I spent nearly the whole time on the treadmill slamming myself with negative self-talk. I almost got off with 18 minutes to go because my knee started acting weird. That stopped but then a guy stepped on to the treadmill next to me smelling of smoke. Almost got off because of that. I just kept telling myself to quit early and that it was going to be a lousy day.

But by the time I was done with the workout, I had a plan for the day that included getting a few things done. I have more energy now, and hopefully I'll get myself motivated.

Still Working Out

2008-11-12T10:10:00.003-06:00

Yesterday I worked out on the Wii for 25 minutes doing some strength training and balance exercises. This morning, i went to the Y after dropping of the kids for school and did an interval workout that was pretty strenuous. I'm pleased that after all these months I'm still making attempts, though I really need to start paying attention to what I eat again....

Still Plugging Along

2008-11-10T10:22:00.002-06:00

Did my strength training saturday.

This morning, I changed my routine a little and went to the Y after dropping the kids off at school. It seemed to work much better as I knew I wasn't going to be able to make myself go out into the cold and darkness at 5 a.m.

I did intervals -- 30 minutes, working on heart rate now that I have a monitor and know what my AT is. It was a good workout.

And I lost another pound!!! And that was with eating like a crazed madwoman all week.

Hopefully this week I can concentrate on eating healthy as well.

Strength Training

2008-11-06T06:46:00.002-06:00

This morning I did a modified workout from my chair -- and i'm not feeling it in my muscles yet, so I guess we'll see if it was a good one later -- based on if I'm in pain.

I also did pushups against the wall - 20 of them. Not a bad way to strengthen my arms if I can't get down on the ground.

Used my 5 pound weights to strengthen my arms as well...

and spent some time on the Wii Fit.

I wore my new heart rate monitor and none of the things I did today got my heart rate up much. But tomorrow morning at the Y I'll work on that part.....

I always feel better when I'm up early to exercise.

I know this probably won't mean anything to most of you, but....

2008-11-05T09:56:00.003-06:00

I have mentioned Jonathan Roche before in my posts. He has the No Excuse Weight Loss System and I have been using his tips and encouragement since June. I recently joined the Momentum Fitness System as Bart bought it for me for my birthday. I have enjoyed being able to post my workouts and receiving so much encouragement from the program.

This morning I needed to know where I could find a workout that I can do in a chair. His No Excuses six minute workout is done from the ground, and I still can't get up and down from the floor very easy.

In fact, the only time I tried it, I tried to do one pushup, and pulled the muscle that is attached to a lung or something -- just my luck. Not like I could stop breathing to avoid the pain. Only I would pull THAT particular muscle. Anyway, I digress.

So this morning I emailed the support team and none other than the famous Jonathan himself emailed me back. We've had a nice interchange this morning and I sort of feel like I have received a personal email from a celebrity.

The one thing that is most amazing about Jonathan is that he has the natural gift of encouragement. His kindness and empathy are so genuine and apparent in what he writes and in everything he says (he has a weekly call in show that I listen to on my IPhone while I work out).

So today Jonathan sent me a personal email that I received after my workout. And that is a pretty great way to start the day.

Slightly Embarrrased by My Lack Of BLogging

2008-11-05T06:34:00.003-06:00

FOrtunately, my lack of blogging hasn't been indicative of me not exercising at all. I lost another 1/2 pound this week and went to the Y yesterday and then worked out on a new Wii game yesterday. Today, having finally bought a heart rate monitor, I went to the YMCA again. For some reason I haven't been making it there as regularly lately.

When I saw the numbers that were my targets I figured I could never do it, but I certainily did. I'm feeling quite proud of myself at the moment. I don't know why I don't make myself get up and do this 3 or 4 times a week like I used to. Maybe this will be the incentive I need.

Slight Fall off the Wagon, but Back Up Again

2008-10-27T08:45:00.002-05:00

Yeah, it wasn't a good week last week. The travelling and then coming home with a sore back, guests sleeping in the family room where the Wii Fit is located, people over for dinner..... all not a good combination.

The good news is that I did not gain any weight this week and that I'm back on track this morning. Last night I walked with Bart and this morning I was at the Y at 5:20. Did my 40 minute interval workout and came home raring to go for the day.

Hopefully this week I can really start watching what I eat again and get in my workouts and maybe I can start losing like I was before.... I'm tired of the plateau.

But at least i'm not gaining it back which has been my pattern. There is that!

Two Days in a Row

2008-10-21T06:14:00.002-05:00

Went to the Fitness Center here in the hotel at 5:20 this morning. Did a 30 minute workout. Feel great. I have to speak for a total of 9 hours over the next 15, so I needed to be energized and it worked!

Big Surprise

2008-10-20T07:10:00.002-05:00

I had a horrible week in regards to eating and exercise, probably the most pathetic since starting in March -- and I lost a half a pound. I was really surprised. I almost didn't get up and go to the Y today, but I hadn't missed going on a Monday in 7 months, so I had to do it, even though I hadn't been for an entire week.

So I am officially at the lowest weight I can remember since 1994.... another 10 pounds or so and I'll be lower than I can remember since 1988.... That's a LONG time....

I did my 40 minute workout and am now more inspired to eat better on this trip...... now that I know I started to lose again and finally got off this plateau...

First Strength Training

2008-10-16T07:37:00.000-05:00

Pretty pathetic -- I am supposed to be doing 15 of each.

I did 5 pushups (knees only), 3 crunches, 3 back bends.... did get the 15 lunges in. I realized I need more space so I am going to have to find a new place to do them. It was a mediocre workout at best.

It Finally Came

2008-10-15T17:34:00.000-05:00

For my birthday I had asked Bart for the No Excuse Weight Loss System because I wanted the heart monitor program. Well, it finally came, but i had pointed him to the wrong page of the website, so he ordered the one withOUT the heart monitor. However, the system seems as though it will be motivating. It has a web-based software program where you record your workouts and weight loss and you can earn prizes and join challenges and everything. I've been listening to his call in radio show for several months and been using his interval workouts, so I am hoping this will continue to help me.

I did not work out yestereday or today and I am feeling it. GOing to go do some stuff on the Wii now.

I ate like there was no tomorrow for two days as well.

Sigh.

Starting the Week Happy (even if it could be based on a lie)

2008-10-13T06:47:00.002-05:00

I got up this morning and headed to the YMCA, weighing in at 257 again, finally, after gaining. That means that since last week I've lost six pounds.

I thought about going back and checking the scale again to make sure, but decided against it. I figured that even if it was a lie, I could bask in it for a week and be disappointed next week.

I've been doing two things differently that, if it is accurate, may be contributing to it. I've been trying to have something to eat within one hour of getting out of bed. Apparenty this jumpstarts the metabolism. I have been trying to have something for breakfast every day the past 7 months, but I was eating it two or three hours after I got up....

And of course, only one dessert a week.

Salinda joined me for my workout this morning and I outlasted her, which always makes me smile.

Now I just need to keep going... hopefully the scale was right and next week i'll hit a new 14 year low.....

My Own Hottest Party Ever

2008-10-10T06:47:00.002-05:00

Well, yesterday and today it's been me, in the basement at 5:30 or 6:00 a.m. having my personal hottest party ever with the Dance Dance Revolution game on the Wii. I'm getting a little better at it and after I finish some strength training and such on the Wii I've been working on improving my dance moves. It gets my heart rate up, so that's the point.

Glad I'm alone though. I'm sure it's not pretty.

Is this not the WAY, to start a new day....

2008-10-08T07:06:00.002-05:00

I wake up Dominyk and wilson every morning with a very ugly version of this song:

"Good morning to YOU, good morning to YOU, we're all in our places with sunshiny faces, is this not the WAYYYYYYYYY... to start a new day."

And I make sure it's good and ugly if they haven't stirred by the time I get to the word way. I'm so annoying.

Anyway, I did go to teh Y this morning and did half of an interval workout -- no treadmills were free for the first 20 minutes I was there....

Last night I walked with Bart.

Yesterday morning I got on the Wii Fit for a bit and then did DDR - HOttest Party for a few minutes. That can really get the heart rate up.

So that's my report. Oh yeah, and I have done pretty well with food so far this week. No desserts, not too many carbs, snacking between meals to keep metabolism flowing. I'm trying to follow the 15 secrets of weight loss that my online personal trainer Jonathan Roche recommends.

But I'm still not doing things as well as I'd like. One day at a time though, remembering the progress I've made....

Starting the Week Off Right

2008-10-06T07:20:00.002-05:00

I began my week at the YMCA this morning. I have gained another pound and now I am just mad. So, I'm going to have to channel that anger into something positive.

I did my 40 minute workout -- 7 minute warm up on bike, 30 minute interval workout (3.5 incline, 4.4 pushing, 2.8 recovery), 3 minute cool down. For some reason my back is hurting today, but I did the workout anyway.

I have decided to have an all out war -- attacking the weight this week and trying not to slip up on anything. My take it or leave it approach to a lot of the habits I had incorporated this spring and summer is really hurting me.

So that's my plan. I'm going to do everything I'm supposed to do for 7 days and see if it makes a difference. Sigh. It sure doesn't sound fun.

Took a 15 minute break

2008-10-03T11:21:00.003-05:00

I was freezing. It' cold in my office. My former self would have gone upstairs to crawl under warm blankets.

Instead, I went into the family room and did the Wii Fit for 15 miutes. Did some stretches, worked some muscles, and got my heart rate up....

I'm warmer.

The Reverse is True

2008-10-03T06:49:00.002-05:00

Well, I did it. I got up at 5 and made it to the Y by 5:25. I did my 40 minute interval workout:

6 minutes on bike
30 minutes on treadmill -- 3.0 incline, 4.3 mph exertion, 2.8 mph for recovery times...
4 minutes on bike

I hated getting up. I hated crawling out of my warm bed and heading out into what is every day a colder world. I hated driving there and mumbled to myself about how it was so early and I was so tired and how I should have gone to bed earlier....

And while on the treadmill I was moaning to myself as well.... so hard to get moving, hate this, why am I doing this ... grrrr.

But, when I was done, I LOVED the feeling. I have tons more energy. I was home in time to shower and get ready, with 15 minutes to spare to blog before waking up the children. I feel positive about my day. My body feels energized.

I have noticed that the reverse is true from what I would expect. (I know, that's a stupid sentence, but I'm too lazy to go back and change it. However, in the time it took me to write that it was a stupid sentence, I could have gone back and fixed the sentence, and now, for sure, explaining that in the time it took for me to tell you that I acknowledge that the time that I used to explain I was lazy, I certainly could have fixed the sentence..... oh well).

I would expect that on the nights when I sleep 8 hours and do not exercise, I would feel more rested during the day as my body would not be as tired. But the reverse is true. If I get up after 6 hours of sleep and do my 40 minute workout, I feel better all day long and get way more done, with lots more energy than if I sleep 8 hours and don't workout at all.

And for someone who spent 19 years doing as little moving as possible, it's too bad I didn't figure it out long ago.

The Good News and the Bad News

2008-10-02T07:12:00.003-05:00

The Good News is that 14 people have already joined the Third Degree Parenting Losers weight loss group that I set up yesterday. I am excited that we will have some support going on and I believe we are off to a great start. Eleven of those members have introduced themselves already.

Here is what I wrote in the introduction to the group:

Parenting kids with special needs is a different kind of parenting. Kids with medical, behavioral or emotional issues, whether they are adopted, foster children, or children by birth, require a lot from us. We often forget to take care of ourselves.

3ºP (Third Degree Parenting) Losers is for people parenting these children who are attempting to lose weight or just get healthy. Join us as we encourage each other to "put our own oxygen mask first."

You can join the group by clicking here.

Other good news is that I avoided eating out and desserts (except two small bites of Bart's dessert at church last night) and pretty much ate what I was supposed to. I also walked with Bart last night.

But this morning I woke up with a horrible headache so I put off my morning workout. Now I'm going to have to fit it in sometime today and that doesn't always go well. So that's the bad news.

One day at a time, some of them pathetic...

Huge Slump

2008-10-01T06:44:00.003-05:00

Good Grief, I'm having a hard time all the sudden. I did go to the Y on Monday morning, had gained 2.5 pounds. But I had a good workout and then walked with Bart at lunchtime and again at night.

Yesterday morning I had a workout on the Wii Fit that was pathetic and walked again last night. But this morning I could not make myself do anything and I'm regretting it. I had my alarm set to go to the Y, but it didn't happen.

But my eating is so unhealthy and I just can't seem to get back on track. I have a few ideas of how I am going to do that.

1) Set My October Goals. For October, I am going to only have one dessert a week. I've been letting this slip, having a bite of this and a bite of that and it's not helping me in any way. If I cut them out all together, it is demoralizing, so once a week I can have one sweet thing....

2) Create a yahoo group for parents of kids with special needs who are trying to lose weight. I think being the moderator of a group like that might help me to go back into the mode of where I felt like I was a role model and doing what I was supposed to do.

3) I'm going to try to limit my eating out -- we don't have the money anyway.... but sometimes it's just easier.

So, we'll see how it goes. I simply cannot let this weight come back on. That is unacceptable to me.

Did it Again...

2008-09-26T07:03:00.002-05:00

Went to the fitness center. Unfortunately there were two women who had already been going an hour (according to treadmill times) who insisted on going another half hour so I ended up riding 7 miles on the bike before I did 10 minutes on the treadmill.

First Time for Everything

2008-09-25T06:45:00.000-05:00

Yup, i did it. Worked out in a hotel fitness center for a full 40 minutes.

Never thought I'd do it.

And it hd big windows where everyone could watch.

But I don't think anyone did.

Getting It Done in the Morning

2008-09-22T06:49:00.002-05:00

There is nothing better than having your exercise for the day done before your day starts. Having my workout done and my shower with a few minutes to spare before the kids get up always gives me a better start to my day.

Weighed in again. Gained 1.5 pounds, but it is no surprise the way I've been eating. I need to go back to no moderation and just be really strict, but with all my travel it's more difficult.

So back to trying again...

Clothes From the Mall and Moving WALKways

2008-09-18T12:35:00.002-05:00

Yesterday Bart made me go clothes shopping. And I shopped at the mall. And things fit.

Grant it, they were still the largest sizes available at the mall, but for so many years there has been nothing that has fit me even in the Plus Size Stores. So this was quite the victory. I still hate shopping, but he says it's a cute outfit. Maybe if I remember I'll have him take a picture today and I"ll post it.

I also found out that walking on the moving walkways is quite speedy. I used to have to lean on the rail to recover from my back pain .... today I just moved right along free of pain.

And as I posted on my other blog, I didn't need a seatbelt extension. A few minor victories, but victories nonetheless.

So even though I'm not watching what I eat at the moment and not losing, I'm not gaining. ANd I'lll be on track again soon.

Gotta Have a Time Limit

2008-09-16T08:01:00.001-05:00

Now This is HILARIOUS. Here I am, a person who six months ago never moved and now if I don't have a time limit I spend more time on the Wii Fit or on Dance Dance Revolution than I should. I even have some sore muscles. But hey, it's better than The Queen of Sedentary...

The Weigh In and the New Toy

2008-09-15T15:31:00.001-05:00

Weighed in this morning. No loss, no gain. Whew, no gain. I ate like there was no tomorrow for 4 days.

And for my birthday I got "Dance Dance Revolution: Hottest Party Ever" and was very excited to start working out on it. Spent some time on it yesterday afternoon and again last night and some more time this afternoon. It takes a while to get the swing of things, but i'm starting to get it.

Don't know if I'll ever get off beginner... but then again, I thought that about the Wii Fit games too...

A Huge Accomplishment

2008-09-12T06:59:00.002-05:00

On March 11th I went back to the YMCA> and yesterday marked six months since I have been there at least 4 times a week. In the last 3 months I don't think there has been a week gone buy where I haven't exercised at least 4 times a week, sometimes as many as 7. And each time it has been at least 30 sometimes as much as 90 minutes a day.

For me this is a huge accomplishment....

A nap or a Wii workout

2008-09-10T14:01:00.001-05:00

Often mid afternoon I get really tired. Especially if I wake up at 5. So today I got really tired and decided to work out on the Wii Fit instead of taking a nap.

Right now I feel energized. I hope I don't crash and burn later in the day.

A nap or a Wii workout

2008-09-10T14:01:00.000-05:00

Tuesday and Wednesday morning workouts

2008-09-10T06:49:00.003-05:00

Yesterday I worked out on the Wii Fit for 28 minutes (mediocre workout) and then walked with Bart last night.

This morning I did my 40 minutes at the Y -- 10 on bike, 30 on treadmill. Interval workout -- first 4 intervals at 4.3 at 3.0 incline. Last three intervals at 4.4 at 4.0 incline.

Weigh in for Monday

2008-09-08T10:24:00.003-05:00

Haven't lost, haven't gained (which I was surprised about since I ate like crazy the last three days). Planning to do much better in the days to come in that area.

Did 40 minutes at the Y. Did my intervals longer -- 1.5 minute interval with 1.5 minute recovery. Did them at 3.0 incline with 2.8 as my recovery speed and 4.2 as my interval speed.

Where Else Can You Be Told You're Perfect Again and Again

2008-09-06T08:36:00.002-05:00

If you've ever played the Wii fit you know that on the steps program each stepped is either missed, OK, or Perfect. I am kind of getting addicted to seeing the words **Perfect** slash across my screen again and again and again. It's very rewarding.

Today I beat my high score (which was also the family high) on the Advanced Steps game and beat the family score on the Beginning Boxing game (and you think you're all that, Leon!) Spent 41 minutes on it, when 30 was all I planned, but I just wanted to beat that high score...

A couple other interesting tidbits of news. I felt something last night. It was a bone. I really didn't know that there was a bone where this particular bone is.

And the secretary at the Junior High said, "Wow, you've lost a lot of weight since I last saw you."

Smile.

YMCA again this morning

2008-09-05T07:14:00.003-05:00

Rand and I both went. Yes, I am forcing him to go, but he doesn't seem to mind it as much as I thought he might. I'm hoping he will build on success. He has been going back at night to lift weights, so he seems to be somewhat motivated.

I did intervals for 30 minutes at 4.0 incline with 4.5 mph -- and on the last 2 intervals, 4.6 the fastest I've ever gone. It is really close to running, but the incline makes it more like very fast walking...

We have been going at 5:30 but that is limiting my time in the morning before the kids get up. Might have to start going earlier next week. I've just been so tired by evening....