Physical, Emotional and Mental steps on my journey towards healthy living on every level

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Feeling Just a Tiny Bit Better

This morning's workout was better than yesterdays by a little bit. I didn't feel quite as drained. however, I think people must wonder how in the world I could work out when I can't even drag my butt up the stairs without breathing heavily when I'm done. I keep telling myself to take it slow, one day at a time, and if today is a bit better than yesterday so be it.

My eating is back under control and I'm not having pop (or soda, for those of you who don't know what pop is). I've had water now... one vitamin water treat yesterday -- and one caffeine free iced tea. Otherwise I"m just trying to get down 64 oz of water a day. I don't mind water. According to Dominyk, it tastes horrible, but I actually think water tastes fine. ;-)

Each day I am adding one minute on the treadmill and increasing my speed by .1 mph. I know that sounds nuts, but since my surgery many things about my body just aren't the way they need to be. So I'm doing it... one step at a time, one day at a time.

My blood sugar numbers are higher than they should be, but I'm hoping that once I get into a routine of eating write they, too, will gradually get lower.


Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Such a Long Road Ahead

I was at the Y again this morning at 6, but the road ahead is so steep. I am so out of shape. I have until the end of August to get my blood sugars down, and i wanted to see PROGRESS in one day. However, I did not even though I ate only what I should have yesterday and exercised and everything. I realize it's going to take time, but wow, the time it is going to take is going to drive me crazy.

Oh well, I'm doing it. Even without seeing results after one day. Ridiculous. :->

Monday, June 28, 2010

Unfortunate News

I have now broken a record. I weigh more than I ever have in my whole life by 2 pounds. I know a lot of it is water weight, but I am going to have to be very diligent now in getting this weight off. I don't feel good when I weigh this much and it's just ridiculous.

If you've followed this blog for very long, you know that 2 years ago i had a major episode of good health that lasted from March to October. During that time I lost 47 pounds and felt great. Now here I am at my heaviest. The amount of self-loathing I have about this particular issue is off the charts.

However, every day is a new day, and so far this day has started well. I got in the 40 minutes of exercise and am half way through my water bottle. I have a bit more energy and I am ready to begin the climb again to get back to the person I was. Sigh.