Physical, Emotional and Mental steps on my journey towards healthy living on every level

Saturday, May 31, 2008

A Walk at Dusk

Perfect night. Not too hot. Not too cold. NOt too humid. Just a nice night to walk. Bart and I went alone.

But we must have walked rather quickly as I am finding myself sweating a bit, something I usually don’t do.

I confess to having a small piece of wedding cake tonight. Resisted last night, but tonight it was too much to resist. It was nasty.

And only 25 minutes worth of exercise today instead of 40, but it is still better than what I was doing a couple months ago.

ANd better than most of my sedentary life.

one day at a time....

A Health Related New Month's Resolution

During the month of June I want to drink the recommended 64 ounces of water per day. For thirty days. And if I don’t float away or bloat completely up, we’ll see if it helps with the weight loss.

The Best Laid Plans

I did take a short walk with Bart last night, but for some reason my back was acting up and we had to cut off one section of our usual route. Then this morning I had every intention of going to the Y when I woke up but Bart, Mr. Unpredictable, was up and dressed and heading to the church by 7:30 to get a few things done before I leave for the soccer game.

So I’ll try and go this afternoon when I return from the game.

Friday, May 30, 2008

Lowest Blood Sugar Since I Started Checking Regularly in February

88 this morning after I went to the YMCA. I am very pleased with these numbers because it means I do not have to take medication. I am controlling my diabetes with diet and exercise. A very important thing -- because if I can do this, then that means that I do not having to start taking oral medication. And if I can avoid that, I’ll never end up needing insulin.

My workout at the Y was better than some, but I’m just not able to find what it takes to push myself like I was a few weeks ago. I started out with 10 minutes on the exercise bike. Then I headed to the treadmill, increasing speed and incline by the minute, peaking at 3.5 mph and a 3% incline. But then I stopped after 15 minutes and finished off my 40 minutes on the bike again. At least it is a bike that has arm movements as well.

I think I am going to have to start counting calories to figure out what else I can cut out or do to lose weight. I am still mad about last week’s gain. Very mad. :-)

Thursday, May 29, 2008

I Did It

I went to the YMCA at 4:15 p.m. I surprised myself. Here were some observations.

The time drags on a lot more for me at that time of night than it does very early in the morning. Maybe in the morning I’m too sleepy to realize what I’m doing.

I felt less stressed when I was done.

My back hurt too much for the treadmill, so I only did it 12 minutes, and then finished on the bike with arms machine.

I was proud of myself for going, but am mad that my back isn’t allowing the kind of workouts I was doing a couple weeks ago.

I don’t know if/when I will go tomorrow and then it is the weekend and then my trip to Arizona. I need a constant routine or I don’t do well.


This morning I managed to allow my sleepy brain to convince myself that I would go to the Y later in the day, that 5 was too early and I needed to go back to bed.

Had my husband been around, i would have gone. I need that accountability. But now it’s too late and 5:00 this morning will never come again.

Who knows, maybe I WILL make myself go after school. If I do it will be a first.

I have been eating the way I am supposed to, and my blood sugars have been within range for days, so I guess I’m not completely falling off the wagon.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

YMCA and Food ntake Report

I went to the Y this morning, determined to have a great workout. I started on the “Climb Master”, some stair thing, and that lasted all of two minutes before I realized my back wasn’t quite ready for that. I then did the treadmill at 3.2 MPH with a 3% incline for 15 minutes and had to stop and finish up my 40 minutes on the bike.

I forgot to have breakfast, but I am back to having the same thing to eat that I was having every day for lunch for several weeks. After my last doctor’s appointment I wasn’t sure I could eat the sandwich, but I tried it today and it seems to be going fine. That formula seemed to be working for me, so maybe I’ll go back to it every day.

I’m thinking of returning to the Y tonight for some racquetball with the kids or some more time in the fitness center. We’ll see how things go, but the kids need something to do, and often, if I go, they will too.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

HItting Bottom

I had "Grizzly Skins" with my half wrap today. Yes, potatos deep fried and covered in bacon and cheese. Yes, they were horrible for me. Yes, I shouldn't have done it. But they tasted great.

And now, I will start climbing back out of my pitt of despair. Thanks to those who have sent encouraging comments my way. Go ahead and scold me now. ;-)

Disgruntled, Disillusioned, Disappointed, Dismayed

An Arby's Wrap has 682 Calories. Six Hundred and Eighty Two Calories. Of course, that is with the lettuce, tomato and onion, but I really don't think ordering one without those things is going to decrease the calories much. It has 48 carbs as well.

A grilled chicken sandwich there only has 38 carbs and 396 calories.

And here I had allowed that Wrap to be my exception. I had three of them last week. No wonder I'm gaining weight.

So, what do you have for fast food? Sometimes it is just inevitable for us to not have it... so what do you order? And don't even think about writing down anything that involves lettuce, as it is the most disgusting food ever known to mankind.

Days Like Today I Want to Give Up

No sleep last night so I made it to the YMCA late and had to cut my workout short. And somehow I gained back the three pounds I lost last week.

It may be water retention because I consumed a lot of sodium the past few days, but I am still every unhappy about this setback.

I know myself well enough and these are the times when things are stressful and I'm not losing that I traditionally have given up. I'm really tempted too today.

Monday, May 26, 2008

Still Only 25 Minutes

We walked tonight, but only 25 minutes. Stress with the family kept me from more tonight, and today went by pretty fast -- plus the YMCA was closed.

Hoping to head there in the morning.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

40 Minute Walk

Bart and I, along with Mercedes, Anthony, Dominyk, Wilson and the dog, walked for 40 minutes on the trail today. It wasn't a fast walk, but it was a walk, and the humidity was high enough that I started to sweat.

And I didn't have to sit down once.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Only 25 minutes but better than nothing

Bart and I walked tonight. ONly 25 minutes of exercise today. The first day in almost 2 week sthat I haven't gotten in at least 40 minutes.

But I'm tired and I'm going to bed soon. And I know that I didn't make the best food choices today, but I didn't go crazy either...

I am just going to keep taking it one day at a time. And when I'm not perfect, or don't meet my expectations, I'll just try harder the next day.

I have set a goal. I want to lose 24 more pounds by Labor Day. I've been averaging over 2 pounds a week, and that would require me to keep it about 2 pounds a week until then. I'm pretty convinced I can do it, though I will have to work hard.

So another day is about over.... Not a super success, but certainly not a failure.

Some of the Differences

Yesterday we went to the Como Zoo, a wonderful little zoo that actually has free admission. I walked for over an hour at the zoo only having to sit down a couple of time.

Over the past 14 years, I have been unable to walk for more than 10 minutes without sitting down. This has made it very difficult for me to enjoy family outings that involve walking. I had begun to believe that I simply did not enjoy doing family stuff, but it was my body telling me that I was in pain, not me not enjoying kids.

We had some good times at the zoo. We also had some not so good times, but for the most part it was a fun time.

i have also noticed that I do not have to go to the bathroom as often as I used to now that my blood sugar numbers are under control. Even with drinking more water, I am now going only once every 2-3 hours instead of every hour. It was really a hassle going places and doing things when I was always in the bathroom. Now a couple hours will go by without me even thinking about it.

And I’ve also noticed that a lot of the food isn’t really alluring any more. I used to “eat my way through” fairs, amusement parks, zoos, museums, school carnivals.... those of you who have a food addiction know exactly what i’m talking about. But last night I had a grilled chicken sandwich at the zoo with a bottle of water. And I felt good. I guess walking with my arteries continuously becoming reclogged was less than comfortable.

So thanks to those who have encouraged me on this journey. Documenting all the benefits is keeping me on track...

Friday, May 23, 2008


One of the biggest indicators of my weight loss is pantyhose. When I get to a more reasonable weight, I can wear them. When it gets out of control, they suck the life right out of me and I can’t stand to wear them. I haven’t worn a pair for 2 years.

I tried some on this morning so that I could make sure I could tomorrow for graduation and they fit fine. Another small victory.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

yes, I did it again

Walked with Bart again tonight, taking my total exercise time to over 1 hour again today. Yes!

I'm not sure how I'm going to do it tomorrow though with my schedule the way it is, but I'm going to try.....

I Chose....

to take the stairs. For the first time I can remember in a very long time, I chose to take the stairs instead of the elevator at the clinic. Three times.

These may not seem like major victories to y’all, but for me this kind of life change is significant.

This is the Lake and One More Thing...

This is a picture of the lake we walked around yesterday. Big, huh?????

Also, I forgot to mention yesterday.... I am now able to buy clothes at regular stores again. Getting down to a 3X probably doesn't sound like a major accomplishment to most people, but for me, right now, it is. Now we're heading for a 2X........

Another morning workout

Was at the Y by 5:10 again this morning. Today I decided to change my workout by increasing the incline to 5%. Wow, that made a big difference. I was only able to push myself to go for 16 minutes at that incline, but 10 of those I went at 3.7 MPH!!! I want to increase that by 2 minutes a day until I can go 25, maybe even 30 minutes at that speed and at that incline. I surprised myself that I could go even that long at that speed with an incline. And it certainly increased my heart rate.

I finished my 40 minutes by doing 24 minutes on the exercise bike.

While there I listened to a the Writer’s on Writing podcast and today’s interview was with Manil Suri who is a very interesting person ( and whose website I really like. Bart an I are thinking about creating a website like this for the promotion of the book we are writing). He is a mathematics professor who is also a writer and has made many efforts to combine his two fields of interest. For example, he gives speeches on infinity to writer’s conferences and has written a short story about math and talks about doing “mathematical outreach.”

Listening to this kind of stuff while exercise almost makes me forget that is what I’m doing. And considering how much I don’t like exercise, any distraction helps!

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Is this Cool or What?

So much great news from todays expedition with Bart.

First news is that we had lunch and I ordered a wrap. They didn't have wraps on the menu, but he said I could order any sandwich and have it put in a wrap. I ordered a chicken sandwich and it came in a tortilla (lots less carbs). BUT he filled the plate with fries, which I did not order. I decided I could allow myself to have 10. And I stopped at ten and left the rest on the plate. I then cut the wrap in half and ate only half of it, saving the rest for tomorrow's lunch.

Second victory has to do with our shopping trip. But first, some background. If you have known me for any period of time you know that I have had trouble with my back since 1989. My pain has fluctuated with my weight but has been very weak. In fact, standing or walking for more than a few minutes has often resulted in such excruciating pain that I have had to sit down.

About 3 months ago I decided that I wanted to work hard to get in better shape so that I could walk without intense pain. Today I shopped, standing up and not leaning on a cart, for an hour. We probably walked over a half mile in the mall going from store to store. It was so nice not to be in horrible pain. I enjoyed our shopping so much more when I wasn't constantly thinking about my pain.

After the mall, Bart wanted to go to Whole Foods, one of his favorite stores. I sat in the car and attempted to blog from there on my phone unsuccessfully. Then we went to Lake Calhoun. We sat in the sun and admired the beautiful day. The weather was perfect -- bright sun, cool breeze, blue skies. I suggested that we walk a while and we were going to turn around if I started to feel too much pain. After a while i started to feel some tension in my back, but it wasn't really
pain. I said I thought maybe we could make it a quarter of a mile around. We made it a quarter of a mile around and I still felt OK. So we kept walking.

I got to the point where I thought maybe I was pushing it and we should turn back and we saw a placard with a map of the lake. It turns out we were just about at the half way point and the distance of our walk was 3.1 miles! So we had no choice. Turning back, or going forward would mean the same thing. So we walked. And we only rested a couple of times for a few minutes. We walked 3.1 miles!!!!! It was an amazing feeling. Bart was shocked as he used to be the one who was dragging me around places when I was in too much pain to make it.

I don't know that I'm ready to walk for an hour and 30 minutes straight (with 2 breaks) again for a while, but it felt SO good to say I had accomplished such a feat. And even though my back is a little sore tonight, it isn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be.

And on top of it all, we had a great time together, talking the whole time about stuff that we never have time to talk about. It is really fun accomplishing hard things at my age. I don't know when the last time was, if ever, that I walked 3.1 miles. I'm smiling.

No Y today

I decided if I was going to have to go without a nap today that I better not get up at 5. But Bart and I will find a nice Minnesota lake to walk around today....

Blood sugars have been consistently good. Have only had three above the target range during the entire month of May, and several have been way below.

I'm starting to think about what I will weigh in 3 months or 6 months or a year if I can keep up this kind of loss and it's exciting.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

I guess I do Look Thinner

I need to take some more pictures (I hardly ever have pictures taken of me. I don't like to be in them. But I still have this outfit, and I need to have some more taken.

I haven't paid much attention to how I'm looking, but compared to these pictures from right before surgery I do look like I've lost weight. In fact, in these pictures I was 46 pounds heavier, so I would hope I look a little smaller....

One Hour and Five MInutes

I cannot remember a single day in my adult life that I have exercised for more than one hour in a single day. Today I worked out for 40 minutes at the Y and then walked for 25 minutes with Bart tonight.

Even though the last 10 minutes I was in pain, it was nothing like the pain I used to experience when i tried to walk. I am so glad that I have gotten to the point that I can walk outside again. I'm going to keep doing it to.... not only is the exercise great, but our conversations are so fun. We talk about such a wide range of topics like, "What does God care about?" and "do you think we should get a treadmill next winter" and "wow, Gizmo (our dog) must have a huge bladder" and "which bishop did you like best?" My husband is witty and smart and fun to talk to and tonight we hardly mentioned the kids ... which is highly unusual....

Yup, one hour and five minutes. I am impressing myself.

Guess How Much Weight I Lost this Week?

I could host a competition and have everyone guess, but instead, I’ll just tell you.

I lost another three pounds! That takes me to 26 pounds in 11 weeks. I’m very happy to see progress. Just 2 more pounds and I back to the lowest weight I can remember being in the last 13 years, although I’m not finding proof of that weight anywhere on my computer. When I hit that weight, though, I will make a graph to celebrate showing losses and gains over the past several years. I have a lot of data to compile from various sources.

My workout was mediocre again. My pulled muscle in my leg was temporary, but my back hurt more than I wanted it to. I only lasted 15 minutes on the treadmill and had to spend the other 25 on the exercise bike. I’m going to try to walk again with Bart tonight. It looks like I’m going to have to build up my back strength again and I’m a little frustrated because I was doing so well.

But I’m not quitting. This seems to be my trend. Eleven or twelve weeks of intense effort usually results in 20-25 pounds of weight loss and then I let it slip. I really would like to lose another 25 this summer -- that’s my goal. And if I can keep up at this rate it is doable. Since September I have lost 37 pounds.

Thank you to those who have been providing encouragement!!!

Monday, May 19, 2008


Well, I got up and was at the Y by 5:10. That is my accomplishment. Then I tried one of those scary machines. It had arms and legs moving together. I had to ask for help after standing there looking stupid and when I did finally get it working I just couldn’t get coordinated. I ended up hurting my back and pulling a muscle in my thigh that I didn’t know existed and only lasted 5 minutes on that machine. I shouldn’t have started with that one, because it meant that I couldn’t walk on the treadmill. I did finish up my 40 minutes on the bike, but I felt dizzy and disoriented -- possibly a little residue of Tylenol PM in my system, or maybe that I’ve not been eating enough protein.

But I went. And tomorrow I’ll go again and it will be weigh in day. I hope I can report another loss. My blood sugar this morning is at 116 -- which for me, after exercise is excellent.

Maybe later today when I’m not being productive with my job, I can post some blood sugar stats over the last four months.

Hope everyone else who is working on their health is doing well. Your progress inspires me.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Celebrating Small Victories

I will not have time for “traditional” means of exercise today. Today is a day where we will be running everywhere. But I’m going to try to sneak in a walk while waiting for the soccer game to start and maybe one at the park during our picnic today.
It won’t be what I had hoped to have time for, but it will be better than nothing.

This morning I put on a pair of pants that I have not been able to wear comfortably ever. I bought them a few years ago and they were a little tight then and for a while I couldn’t wear them at all Today they fit very comfortable. I’m trying to celebrate every little victory.

I am using the MacJournal program for blogging again, and was looking at the very beginning entries in this blog. If you haven’t read them, some of the early entries are really hilarious.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Another Goal Reached

I did it this morning. 40 minutes on treadmill, 15 of them at 3.5 mph. I could not get that heart rate higher than 159 though. I’m not sure what to do. I think may be I just need to bring Tony with me and have him stand in front of the treadmill and taunt me as he does all day long at home. I bet I could get my heart rate up then.

I then cooled down with 5 minutes on the exercise bike.

Starting Monday I will increase the grade incrementally. And start adding evening walks. Maybe just maybe I’ll start heading to some of those other scary looking machines with arm movements or stair steps or something. But that’s down the road a bit.

I am never hungry, thanks to the lap band. The lap band is a great too, but so easy to cheat.

As I have said multiple times, “If I only ate when I was hungry, I wouldn’t weigh this much now.”

But it is nice to not always have those physical hunger pains. If I eat three very small meals a day and I don’t snack. It is very simple.

So, upward and onward I go. How’s everyone else doing?

Friday, May 16, 2008

Reaching Another Goal

Several months ago I determined that by the time it was nice outside I would be able to walk with my husband. He likes to walk a lot during the summer and historically back pain is something that prevented me from ever going with him.

We are an interesting pair, because we have very little in common.... besides food. ;-) Our dating life consisted of us eating together... a lot.... and food that tasted very good. So since I have been dieting, it isn't as fun for us to have lunch or dinner together when I can't eat much or choose not to.

So I decided to work towards replacing our time together that used to be spent eating walking together. I started walking about 12 minutes in the morning on the treadmill, and completing the rest of the 40 minutes on the recumbent bike (arms and legs). Each day I started to add two minutes. Yesterday morning I hit 38 minutes on the treadmill! ANd I increased my speed over that time from 2.6 to 3.4 MPH. I told myself that if I could get to 40, I would try walking outside.

Since it was Bart's day off today, I decided to try it a day early. And we had two wonderful 25 minute walks today.

I love statistics so I keep track of everything. I have a spreadsheet that keeps track of how fast I go, how far I go, what my heart-rate is, etc. And I want to increase just a little bit every day. Tomorrow I am going to go the full 40 on the treadmill and add 5 minutes on the recumbent bike, increasing my YMCA workout to 45 minutes for the first time ever. And then I hope to add an after supper walk every night.

If I can keep increasing just a tiny bit each day, it will keep me motivated. So that's my plan. And of course, I'll document it and make myself little charts and diagrams and graphs. And in some sick way, it will keep me going.

If you're lucky, maybe i'll post some of my graphs here. ;-)

Exercise and Blood Sugar Report

25 minutes of walking on pavement with some hills! It was by far the longest I have made it without severe pain in months. And tonight we will do it again. And the conversation with Bart was great too.

I also woke up to a blood sugar of 96 this morning. I guess when you are too stressed and nauseous to eat your numbers get pretty low. ;-)

I’m finding that on my dieting journey to rid myself of food addiction, every hour is a victory. Every time that I can say no to something is empowering. Every time I can make a good choice and choose a healthier food over another makes me feel better about myself. And I am especially confident when I can make myself do something hard that I don’t want to do.

One step at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time... and never stop.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Addiction to Food (Though you might be able to apply this as a metaphor to any addiction)

Addiction is a funny thing. I’ve often said that I have an addictive personality and that the reason that I never got addicted to cigarettes, or booze, or drugs was because I never had the first one.... but my mother fed me, so my food addiction began. And while this is a funny joke, it is really quite true.

I have also found that addiction, whether it is to food or anything else, can turn us into people we don’t want to be. It can make us lie, it can make us hide things from people, it can make us break promises to others. It can compromise our integrity. And often it makes us lie to ourselves.

Take fast food for example. Eleven weeks and two days ago I had my last bite of fast food with the exception of Arby’s and Subway wraps. I allowed myself those two things because I knew there were times when I would need to take the kids for something quick and I would need to eat too. So I gave myself those exceptions.

Since I made this commitment, I have not been inside a single fast food restaurant except Subway. When I have been to Arby’s it has been through the drive through. My only solution has been to stay completely away. Because I know this is how it would go. I would head in the door to McDonald’s, for example, saying to myself, “I can get a fruit and walnut salad.” And that is what I would order. And I would sit next to one of my kids who had a large fry. McDonald’s fries are my weakness. The whole time I would be lying to myself. convincing myself that I could have just one fry. And then, I would have it. And then, pretty soon, I would have another, all the while lying to myself that I was going to be able to stop after “just one more fry.” The problem is, soon I would be offering to buy my child another order and eating those too.

For me, the only way to not have fast food is to stay away from the restaurant completely. If I don’t, I will find myself right back where I started from. And once I had cheated once, what harm would be done if I just did it one more time? And then one more time. You’re getting the picture. Pretty soon I would be right back to having it five or six times a week.

There are some people who believe that moderation is a good thing. But when something is an addiction, there are no plans for partial use of the thing to which one is addicted. I don’t believe that Alcoholics Anonymous is preaching moderation... This may be why Food Addicts Anonymous is so successful -- no sugar and no flour. Period.

And then there is the old substitution game. OK, I promise not to eat ice cream any more. I am going to completely give up ice-cream never to have it again. But then there is frozen yogurt, or frozen custard, and what is the harm in that? And pretty soon i’m eating more calories with the substitution than I did with the ice-cream itself.

Have you ever played mind tricks with food? You say, OK, I am going to diet, and this time I’m serious.... but you set up just one loophole in your diet plan to reward yourself. Every week I will go have one scoop of ice-cream. And soon you are saying, “well, I get one scoop a week, so why not have my weekly scoop today?” And then, the next day you might conclude, well, maybe a scoop a week isn’t enough, maybe I should have a scoop every day. And pretty soon the diet isn’t working.

And then there is accountability. Finding the right people who can help an addict is tricky. It takes a lot of will power to help someone overcome an addiction. My children get caught up in old patterns too, and forget some of the progress I have made. They will walk up and offer me chocolate, or some other treat. They hold it out to me and ask me to have some. It is my job to say no but often I can’t. I grab whatever is offered me and chow down.

I have had to teach my children that if they love me, they will help me stop my addiction. They will stop handing me the candy, the chips, the donuts. And some of them, who have started to get the picture, will actually even say no when I ask them. I reach out my hand when they have a treat and say, “Can I please have some?” and even though they would love to share their treat with me, they say, “No, mom, sorry. You can’t eat this junk any more.”

Love is saying no to a person who has an addiction even if you want more than anything to make them happy and give them what they want. I hope that my dieting is teaching my kids how to do this as it might, unfortunately, be a skill they need some day if they are involved with someone who has an addiction.

All of this to say that for me, the only way that I can see stopping an addiction is to give it up completely. In the case of dieting, it obviously can’t be all food, but several things that just aren’t good for us, with no substitutions, and as extreme as possible. If I don’t, I fall back into old patterns. And if I am helping someone in that same position, then I can do it no other way, even if they want moderation.

I’d be interested in hearing feedback from others about my “all or nothing” approach. Has anyone been able to completely control an addiction by using moderation? To me it seems it would lead right back to where you began. Maybe this is a personality thing, or maybe it is just the nature of addiction... and “cold turkey” is really the only answer, regardless of how very hard it is.

Best Workout Ever

If you would have told me even a couple weeks ago that I could make it on treadmill for 2 full miles I would have never believed you. In fact, I had just made it to one mile on April 29, and remember being very proud to make it that far. Well, today I did it. I surpassed every previous record. I went 38 minutes on the treadmill, cooled down for 2 minutes on the exercise bike. On the treadmill I went 3.4 mph, getting my heart rate to 161 and made it to 2 full miles exactly.

My goal was 2 miles in 40 minutes with a 3.5 mph speed. If I can reach that tomorrow, then I am going to extend my total workout in hte morning to 45 minutes, cooling down with 5 on the bike (if I don’t sit a few minutes it’s hard for me to make it out to the vehicle because of back pain.

Then I will begin to supplement with some evening walking outside or maybe even get on that nice bike that we bought me a couple years ago.

Is anyone else out there dieting or working on new habits? I’d love to hear about it if you want to post it in the comments section. Last time I encouraged everyone to join me, everyone else may have been successful but I wasn’t. Now that I’m doing well, maybe we can encourage one another once again.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

I Did It -- Victory is Mine

In February I went to see the medical doctor. He said he wanted to prescribe medication to help me control my diabetes. I told him that I was determined to do so with diet and exercise but had not been able to do so to this point. I said, “Please, give me three more months to try. This time I am determined to bring the numbers down." I wish I could have taken a picture of the skepticism on his face. It was very obvious.

But today, I got this letter:

Your blood work came back and showed the following results.

Your complete chemistry panel which includes kidney and liver function testing was all normal. Your blood sugar that day was quite fine at 113 as was your sodium and potassium levels.

Your homoglobin A1c was excellent at 6.5% which indicates good blood sugar control. our goal should be to keep that number less than 7%.

Your cholesterol likewise looked very good at 153. The HDL or good cholesterol was average at 47 and LDL or bad cholesterol nice and low at 93> Triglycerides are fine at 67. Those numbers are all very much within goal range and are excellent. you have made nice improvements in all parameters and are now at goal.

I did it!!!! With lots of support from Bart, the kids and friends. And I’m not stopping now. Even though I didn’t sleep at all last night, I got up and went to the Y. I am determined to keep going. And a letter like this is very motivating.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008


Went to the YMCA for the 8th day straight today. Worked very hard. Went farther and faster than ever before on the treadmill, and got my heart rate into the “Target Zone”. I was thrilled to find that I had lost 3.5 pounds this week. That means that in 5 pounds I will be tied with the lowest weight I can remember being in about 14 years. Huge accomplishment for me.

When I get to that weight, I am going to start making graphs for you. I have lost a total of 23 pounds in the past 10 weeks. I’m feeling very good about that.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Day 7 and Counting, and My Lack of Performance

Today is the 7th day in a row I’ve been to the Y. Historically, I have only shot for 5 days a week, but I decided that I was going to see if going 7 would help with weight loss. I will find out tomorrow when I weigh in.

So, I decided to start a tradition of taking the kids to the Y on Sunday afternoons to play racquetball. I agreed to play each child that went with me one game. Jimmy, Dominyk, Tony and Wilson were the ones who chose to come. It was humiliating.

Apparently, Tony’s tennis season has helped his racquetball. I don’t know if he did it on purpose or not, but I had a solid 8-0 lead when he started pushing it and trash talking me until I was mad. He ended up beating me 15-13.

I did beat Dominyk 15-1. He is hilarious to watch play because he really gives it his all... and his ADHD prevents him from being able to remember how many times the ball has bounced. So, he’ll dive for a ball that has already been my point for several bounces. It’s fun to watch his enthusiasm.

JImmy beat me fair and Square. 15-8 or something. He’s grown 6 inches since the last time we played and had another season of tennis. But I did score on him and maybe if I can get my groove back, I’ll beat him too.

Wilson opted for AIr Hockey, and the little bugger beat me 8-5. Giggling every time he scored a point.

I may try this again next week. It’s a break from the regular workout routine and helps keep the kids busy and active for a couple hours on a Sunday. All the other hassles (the fight over the front seat, the bickering, the arguing over who gets to play me first, the slapping in the van......) might be on the minus side of the equation, but I think it still is a net positive effect.

And this morning I lasted 34 minutes on the treadmill, going 1.7 miles. A definite record for me.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Five Days in a Row

It’s Saturday and I went to the YMCA surprising myself, even. And I worked harder than ever. Spent 32 minutes on the treadmill at a faster speed than I’ve been able to maintain. My legs even hurt a bit and I sweat.

My blood sugar numbers have been lower than usual and I think it is the consistent exercise. I am determined to have weight loss on Tuesday when I weigh in because things the last couple weeks the weight has not been coming off very fast.

I am having a follow up appointment on Tuesday to see if I need another fill. I’m not sure how much the lap band is contributing to my weight loss as I’m working hard at cutting back and exercising.

As long as I am seeing results I can be motivated. It’s when I don’t that I get discouraged. So I am determined to get results.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Still Going

I haven’t updated as much as I should lately, but I’m still going strong on attempting to exercise and cut food intake. I have set up another doctor’s appointment for next week and maybe I’ll get another fill if he thinks it is necessary. When I weighed in on Tuesday, I had not lost anything, but I am attributing it to water weight as I ate the saltiest sunflower seeds in excess the night before and my fingers were swollen.

This morning I was at the Y for the third day in a row. I’m attempting to go seven days straight so that I can see how much that affects my weight loss. I went to have my A1C tested yesterday so that the doctor can determine if it has come down in the past 3 months. If it hasn’t I will have to start taking medicine for diabetes, which I really do not want to do. I am really hoping my hard work has paid off.

I am increasing my time on the treadmill and lessening my time on the exercise bike. I have a bad back, so walking has been painful, but i am trying to strengthen it by adding two minutes a day. I am up to 28 minutes and when I can spend the whole forty on the treadmill and not ride the bike, then I may start walking a little in the evenings too.

I have lost about 20 pounds in the last 9 weeks. I need to keep going.... The lap band keeps me from being hungry so as long as i can conquer the hungry THOUGHTS and think about things besides food I do ok.